The Goddess of EnoughPosted: May 12, 2015 Filed under: Creativity, Feminine Power, Goddess Spirituality, Womb | Tags: Art, Creativity, Goddess, Maria Badiei, women's spirituality, Writing 56 Comments
With anything that’s alive and constantly evolving in the moment, it’s time to honor the need for this particular “belly” to expand by making make room for other kinds of stories I’d like to tell as well.
I love writing about women’s bodies and sharing my experiences of reclaiming my womanhood from the patriarchy—and there will be more stories about the feminine to come. But focusing just on the reclamation part of my voyage has started to feel like putting on a favorite pair of jeans that have become a little tight.
Growth is always a good sign, especially when there is the need to stretch old boundaries, including the self-imposed kind. Still, this is the type of unfurling that makes me feel scared and excited and vulnerable at the same time.
The deep-seated fear that comes up for me is: Am I enough? As in, in this case, if I change and start to deviate from what people have gotten used to expecting from me here, will I—just me—be enough for you, my blogging community, to keep coming back for more? There’s only one way to find out.
The other day, my friend Maria Badiei, who is both an artist and healer, gifted me with a painting she’d made several years ago. We call this artwork of hers “The Goddess of Enough.”
The female figure in the center looks very much like what I once imagined how a deity with that name might look. At the time, I desperately needed the reminder that no matter what happens or doesn’t happen in life, I, Diahann Reyes, am enough— as opposed to my lifelong, polar opposite worries of either being “too much” or “not enough.” Both tend to stop me dead in my tracks.
I thought the Goddess of Enough only lived in my imagination until I saw Maria’s work and realized that she has seen her, too. The painting now hangs in my living room. To me, this image shows a woman birthing all sorts of possibilities in her life because she knows her own enoughness.
I am enough. I am enough. I am enough. These three words, which I say over and over to myself, have become my mantra.
So stay tuned for changes on this blog, which may happen sporadically or in waves—not unlike contractions—as Stories from the Belly slowly morphs into its next becoming.
I eagerly await witnessing your next becoming.
Thank you, Alice! The decision to take up more space, incorporating the old, feels great 🙂
I love how you put that: “to take up more space.” A powerful decision, especially given how many social forces work to constrain — not only the space women occupy — but the amount of space women give themselves permission to want. All I can think to say:
YOU GO, GRRL.
Yes! The declaration seemed as much an announcement of what is coming as a commitment I was making to myself. Thanks for reflecting that back, Alice.
A beautiful painting! And a beautiful, and growing, idea behind it.
Thank you, Georgia! And yes, the painting is gorgeous.
I too am very eager to read more of your stories. No need to apologize for wanting to expand and change. Yes, change can be frightening. The familiar is comforting but can also make us feel stuck. So, I say, go for it. Be who you are in all your different Selves.
Thank you, Carol! I love your words of wisdom: “Be who you are in all your different Selves” and the expansion inherent to that. And always grateful to see you here. You and Diana at Holistic Wayfarer were the first to welcome me into this community when you both visited my first posts.
Well and fair enough…. I sometimes feel we forget to take a little bit of care our ourselves and appreciate what we are and so on, Instead we tend to focus on the things or characteristics we lack off… It is a woman issue indeed, which becomes insatiable in the realms of the Capitalistic society … And you need to deal with it… I think your post points in that direction,… thus I thank you for sharing… All the best to you!, Aquileana 😀
Thank you, Aquileana. I agree- that fear of not being enough, which impacts both men and women does seem to affect females the most. Been reading Lean In by Sheryl Sandberg and she talks a lot about how that is often what has stopped her and other women she has known. If everyone came from that place within of knowing we are enough- it would be a different world!
I’ve a feeling we’ll not be disappointed.
Thank you, Peter! Grateful for your support and presence here.
Reblogged this on Jin Okubo.
Thank you, Jin for sharing with your community.
For what it’s worth, I won’t be going anywhere. I’m kind of excited to see where you go next actually. 🙂 (The painting is amazing. I deeply admire painters. I couldn’t do it.)
Thank you, Tony! 🙂 I’m excited too and so grateful for the warm words of encouragement from you and others here and appreciative of what you bring to the mix with your insights.
yes- the painting is amazing, right? So much going on in the image, too.
Looking forward to new evolutions! Your insightful nature is what keeps me coming back… 🙂
Thank you, Katalina! And for that reflection back. 🙂
Good enough for your and good enough for us. Rethinking your blog is a good thing and doing it the way you’re doing it is very sensible.Good luck and watching with interest how this space evolves.
Thank you, Sue. I’m excited to bring in new areas of exploration along with some of what I’ve been cultivating. i see from your blog that you are the mastress of reinvention. I’m inspired.
I’ve always admired your writing Diahann for all kinds of reasons. I look forward to reading your new work. Regards Mark
Thank you, Mark! Grateful for your words and support.
“I am enough, I am enough”. As well a mantra for myself that began as the faintest whisper two and a have years ago and has slowly but steadily gained speed and volume in my being. It is starting to become a voice, I can hear it coming out every once in a while now as I begin to speak again after so very long, when the dominant voice from the past called fear arises that would have normally said “to much” or “not enough” it is becoming more and more expressed and says “enough”.
I only recently discovered your blog and it has been inspirational to me in the sense that I had hoped to find someone, another woman, that was growing into the comfort that I have been with their body. When I say body I do not mean in the literal physical sense, but in the deep appreciation of the feminine and the vessel that has been given to us by our higher power to encompass and relay that. To do that I believe, it is then inevitable that the mind and spirit must follow, it is impossible for it not to. They are the three puzzle pieces that make up the full intention of our being here in this life.
I am excited to hear the other pieces your puzzle. Have faith that your intention is a natural progression and that your spirit will be the anchor. I hope that sharing in your experience will help me to grow that voice of spirit I have rising within myself.
Thank you, Alaina. I love knowing that you’ve been on a parallel journey of claiming your enoughness and that you’re also been part of the feminine awakening that seems to be happening (gratefully) in our lifetime. I so agree with you that the mind/spirit/body make up that trifecta of the sacred- spirit with matter is heaven on earth really really if you ask me.
I am so with you that each of our journeys are for ourselves and for others in that collectively we catalyze one another. Look forward to finding out more about where part 2 of your life is taking you on your blog.
Being that you are one of the most lovable of spirits on the planet I wonder why you wonder!
But I get it. It’s natural and human to worry… for anybody.
You always have been and are “enough” Diahann for all of your readers (whether they are coming with or without expectations of you).
That’s a beautiful painting and intention to share. I love it. Your changes and growth are already present and I’m honored you’ve allowed me to witness on your blog.
Be you, Diahann whatever you want to channel or create or change. Your core is always perfect. (maybe I need to define perfect: perfect allows imperfection just as understanding admits to not understanding, if that makes sense).
I sound “full of myself” but I just think you’re great! 🙂
Katherine, I love to hear that you are full of yourself. When think of that expression, said to me so often as a warning as a child “don’t be full yourself” – now I think, who else should I have been full of but me? Is it no wonder that if I emptied myself out so as not to be full of myself I then proceeded for years to try to fill myself up with other things outside of me- food, men, etc? So yay to both our fullness.
And thank you for your words and presence, which have always been loving and encouraging and beyond supportive. You make me see myself brighter than I allow and I’m grateful. This comment, from you, esp. made me feel warm and fuzzy all over.
Yes, you are enough and what you do is enough and often much more than that, Diahann. What a cool painting! I, too, look forward to see what you have in store for (you) and us!!
Thank you, Audrey!! I’m looking forward, too. And I can’t wait to tell Maria about the wonderful reception her work is getting here.
Amazing artwork. I look forward to reading more of your stories.
Thank you, Bonolo. And yes, Maria’s painting is exquisite.
As you infer, if we’re alive, we’re constantly evolving.
Even when you write about the ‘Female Body and Its Appetites’ I still found applications beyond the female body; for life in general.
Bring it on! 🙂
Thank you, Timi! That’s really good to know that there have been broader applications (and so appreciate our exchange a few weeks back about the intention behind this very post and your encouragement). xo
Change and growth are good! Excited to continue following your blog.
Thank you!!! Me too 🙂
Oh, I am so excited to see what takes shape! And I love the Goddess of Enough. I need to get to know her. Thank you for introducing me. 😉
Thank you, Jenn. And for your support (thinking esp. about our last email conversation.) Yes, SHE’s awesome, isn’t she? 🙂
Love the expansion and excited to see more! ❤ Aleya
Thank you, Aleya!
I love your mantra, and the painting. I look forward to the next phase of your blog!
Thank you so much, Liz!
What a wonderful, honest post reflecting your vibrancy and awareness, Diahann. Like your other fans, I am excited for you and look forward to seeing how you claim even more of your abundant possibility. Very cool to have the rich imagery of this painting to serve as a talisman, an inspiration.
I have to confess, your post is eerily timely for me, as I feel more and more restless with my own blog. Some days ready to pack up my tent, others still feeling the rush of inspiration….sadly, nearly always, still feeling “not enough.”
But for tonight, I am joining in your “I am enough” mantra…and so grateful for your beautiful soul in my life. xo
Thank you, Chloe! I definitely hope you keep writing and expressing. You bring so much inspiration and uplift. (And I’m always impressed with the frequency in which you come up with new material to write about.)
I’m excited too-although now that I’ve made my declaration all these female body story ideas have started to bubble again, is if I found a new place in me to tap into that particular fountain.
It’s new for me to not necessarily throw out the baby with the bathwater and add new elements to the old- so here’s to hopefully more textures. Grateful, as always, for your support. xo
Look forward to the next blog transformation.
My oldest niece who was an engineer, is now a romance writer. I know why she made this decision. I do feel she has more stories to tell which has nothing to do with her current type of writing. But I think she is grieving a lot and is afraid.
I can only cheer her for her now identity. And hope she grows in courage.
So go forward ..!
Thank you, Jean! I’m excited to expand, weaving more of the old with some new.
That’s a pretty big career shift to go for you niece from engineering to romance writing, which undoubtedly took courage! She is lucky to have your support.
I think we all need to bathe ourselves in that concept of enough.
Do we ever feel that we are ‘enough’? I know that’s been a challenge for me my entire life. As I’ve ‘matured,’ I’ve begun to enjoy all that I am, and to believe in all that I’ve been. But, it’s still a challenge. Wonderful post – I look forward to more, whatever ‘shape’ that takes.
Thank you, Pam. And inspiring to know that as time passes that sense of enoughness grows and becomes more innate!
You know this is a question I keep circling back to on the Holistic Journey.
As for you, you are more than enough – but not too much, LOL. Just stay happy with what you put out and we will feel the power, D.
Thank you, Diana for your support and great words of wisdom from a pro! xo
excellent choice and decision, young lady… 🙂 is Maria Badiei of Romanian origin? – ’cause her name does sound Romanian… I’ve just visited her site and she seems to be a lovely and a very interesting person, like you… 🙂 stay healthy, “cool” and optimistic! my very best and good luck in all your present and future endeavours! cheers, Mélanie
Thank you, Mélanie! I don’t think she is Romanian – yes, she is a lovely person and a wonderful healer. 🙂
I like these three positive words to be used as a mantra. They are great positive affirmation words!! Hugs, Robin
Thank you, Robin! I have been using the mantra quite a bit these days as a reminder.
Fantastic post. You write simple. I understand everything. bye
Thank you! Glad you enjoyed the post!